I made peppermint sugar cookies tonight for fusion tomorrow night. Now that that task is done I'd really like to just sit down and watch the Cosby show on Netflix, but I know I need to spend some time with God today...especially since I missed yesterday. I don't feel guilty about it - it's just been on my mind (and heart) that I didn't spend any time reading my bible or praying yesterday and I don't like that. I need to be MORE honorable...which means being MORE faithful (and more diligent)...even with the small things like: reading my bible, prayer, dishes, laundry, brushing my teeth, etc. So anyway, here I am.
I wanted to blog tonight about a couple of verses that have been sticking with me lately and what they mean to me.
Proverbs 10:19 (NKJV)
In the multitude of words sin is not lacking, But he who restrains his lips is wise.
All of my life my dad's made comments to me about how much I talk. I always thought it was funny...but when I came across this verse it struck a chord with me. At work, Jylina talks even more than I do and I've found that when she really gets talking it affects me in a big way. The longer she talks the more foul my mood becomes until I'm just as upset or more so than she is. And I don't like that. Anger, resentment, talking about others behind their backs...all of this can stem from one person spouting their mouth off. And although I use Jylina as an example, I know that my mouth can be the exact same way. When I get to talking, especially if I'm upset, my words can affect others too and I can be the catalyst to sin. So...I'm trying to restrain my lips...not necessarily for wisdom (although I think that's a great perk) but to keep sin from being abundant.
Proverbs 13:25 (NKJV)
The righteous eats to the satisfying of his soul, But the stomach of the wicked shall be in want.
I understand that this verse is a metaphor for the Bread of Life (the word of God)...but somehow it seems to have a more literal meaning for myself. I should be more satisfied by reading the bible than by filling my stomach. In other words, I need to change my perspective about food. My greatest concern everyday should not be what's for breakfast, lunch or dinner...but rather when will I have the time to get into the word today and pray? This is difficult for me. You could say that I'm just a little bit obsessed with food and eating. My taste buds are always in want of something good and more often than not my stomach seems like a never ending black pit. I used to wake up in the morning when I was in jr. high and high school and literally the thing that would get me out of bed was what kind of cereal we had in the pantry waiting for me to eat it. When I went on my VLC diet in college I would dream about pizza and hamburgers and brownies. I know that this is not normal. I know that I have issues with food and over-eating. In fact, I've been struggling lately with whether or not I should join OA (overeaters anonymous). Aunt Sherrill joined years ago and it has helped her tremendously. But...it costs money and belts are strapped around here. Anyway, the point is that for me, this verse becomes something more. The satisfaction of my soul is more important than the want that is in my stomach. Although it's hard to put into words...I know what I mean.
I'm continuing to pray that God breaks my heart for people so that I can love them like He does... and that he gives me my vision. I'm praying that God helps me to both restrain my lips and satisfy my soul (not my stomach).
P.S. If Pastor Rick were to ask what did we do with the time that we've been given this week....I feel like my answers would at least register on the radar. We gave tithe and missions offering...I helped out in Nursery this week...I went to the first decorating night at church and was able to talk with Kim for a while...and I made cookies for Fusion. I'm also going to Fusion tomorrow night and helping to finish decorating on Saturday afternoon. It may not be much (and sometimes I wonder if any of this registers on God's radar) but at least I'm putting some action behind my words....even if it does feel insignificant still.
P.P.S. Oh....and I started reading Sun Stand Still.
